Pizza and Beer

So tonight was interesting...

It was the usual friday night affair of pizza and beer split between two friends with the exception of the fact that I found out one of my High School friends got married this year.

This in and of itself is a wonderful thing, but I guess I feel a little upset because I never even got an invitation to the wedding. This is a guy who I was really good friends with and whom I had a very good personal relationship with. I think what upset me most was the fact that some other people that had seemed to drop off the face of the planet were there as well.

The wedding was in Corsica, Spain. Now first of all I probably couldn't have afforded to go to the wedding because up until now I was unemployeed for the last year. Does that disqualify me from getting an invitation to the wedding though? Sure, I might not be able to make it, but don't I deserve the benefit of the doubt? Especially since I bothered to include what I considered my close friends to my wedding? I have a fairly small direct family and so a lot of my invitations went to friends that I kept in touch with...one included the recently married.

Don't get me wrong, I am not bitter in the least and I wish them the best in the years to come...I think I just felt a bit of betrayal at the inclusion of some people that seemed to have been alienated a long time ago and the exclusion of myself, but then maybe I was never as good a friend as I think I may have been...I shall never know.

What is the past has been and always shall have been. I move forward on this day, looking to embrace a new future, and embracing new experiences with wide eyes and open arms.

-J